flower in french

i'm dying to think that there is something that i'm missing. some indelible fact that would make everything make sense, but i don't know if i believe in facts anymore anyway. it always seems as if something is a fact and then all of a sudden it isn't because its been replaced by a new "fact" thats even better. maybe thats the problem any one can see anything from any side. does that make sense?

i don't think i know how to talk to people anymore. i feel like every once and a while i would talk to someone and feel like they really got it and i got them. like for a short period of time everything could just line up together, you know, in a parallel sort of way. i never feel like that anymore. i haven't in a long time and i'm doubting if i ever really did or i if i just imagine it that way, you know, in retrospect.